January 4, 2021 “I’ve been crawling on my bellyClearing out what could’ve beenI’ve been wallowing in my own confusedAnd insecure delusionsFor a piece to cross me overOr a word to guide me inI want to feel the changes coming downI want to know what I’ve been hidingIn my shadowMy shadowChange is coming through my shadowMy shadow’sShedding skinI’ve been pickingMy scabs again...I choose to live and toGrow, take and give and toMove, learn and love and toCry, kill and die and toBe paranoid and toLie, hate and fear and toDo what it takes to move through...See my shadow changingStretching up and over meSoften this old armorHoping I can clear the way byStepping through my shadowComing out the other sideStep into the shadowForty six and two are just ahead of me” — Maynard James Keenan
November 1, 2020 “I’m going under and this time I fear there’s no one to save me.This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy.I need somebody to heal.Somebody to know.Somebody to have.Somebody to hold.It’s easy to say.But it’s never the same.I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the painNow the day bleeds.Into nightfall.And you’re not here.To get me through it all.I let my guard down.And then you pulled the rug.I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.I’m going under and this time I fear there’s no one to turn to.This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you.Now, I need somebody to know.Somebody to heal.Somebody to have.Just to know how it feels.It’s easy to say but it’s never the same.I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape.” — Lewis Capaldi