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I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I want to feel the changes coming down
I want to know what I’ve been hiding
In my shadow
My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow’s
Shedding skin
I’ve been picking
My scabs again
...
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through
...
See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me
— Maynard James Keenan

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I’m going under and this time I fear there’s no one to save me.
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy.
I need somebody to heal.
Somebody to know.
Somebody to have.
Somebody to hold.
It’s easy to say.
But it’s never the same.
I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain
Now the day bleeds.
Into nightfall.
And you’re not here.
To get me through it all.
I let my guard down.
And then you pulled the rug.
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.
I’m going under and this time I fear there’s no one to turn to.
This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you.
Now, I need somebody to know.
Somebody to heal.
Somebody to have.
Just to know how it feels.
It’s easy to say but it’s never the same.
I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape.
— Lewis Capaldi